I’ve been there. Seen most of it, felt the emotion, then hid
away as if I’m the most worthless individual created upon this very world. The
sadness, the raw emotion, being held within my own soul as close as a Mother
holds a child upon any given day. It’s real, it’s reasoned pestilence, a
chapter of a book with a story still to be written.
I’ve been a faceless person. I’ve been nothing, within a
room filled with personality and zest. The conversation assassins and the
attention seekers, all treading upon any chance of your actual soul appearing
to the singular, or to the many. I’ve stuttered and walked away on many
occasions. It’s the norm, it’s the normal circumstance, it’s the soldier upon
the battlefield for the first time. You feel the tension, the odd stance,
wishing to run despite being frozen in place.
This is not the shape of your heart. We all know this. We
feel this. The faceless person walking across the road, hearing the beep to
hurry up. The faceless individual, walking into a room to be greeted by silence
and that uncomfortable aura. If only. If any. We’re the person that can enjoy a
conversation, understanding how important they can be, despite being
interrupted and noticing lapse in other’s concentration. Abandoned, ignored,
the worthless feeling rising within.
To me, none of you are faceless. I have to listen, I wish to
listen, as I’ve been the exact same person as you. The rehearsing of lines
before asking a question. The inability to speak to another, knowing that they
simply do not wish to listen. It’s expected, it’s realised, that we can be a
nation of selfish animals. The congressional hearing of truth being ignored for
the shape of a face or the presentation of skin. The need to be famous, to be
liked, is within all of us. For some, for others, it is the overriding
sensibility of their lives. The depth is lacking, the requirement simple, yet
so very, very flat.
We were born to hold another’s hand. We live to smile or, so
it should be said, to be happy. The misery and sadness within a soul, can know
depths that even the deepest oceans would shy away from such moments. We can be the unknown. The many within the
few. We wear no masks as, when we’re being honest, we have the inability to do
so. What you do not see, is right in front of us. The hidden smile, the
emotional bleak ticking clock, which is also known as a heart.
Then, from nowhere, once you believe and accept the
realisation that your words and smile, are simply not required, you can find
peace. We need not the acceptance of others. We do not need to command the room
when we enter. We may always, forever and a day, be ignored when in a crowd but
that’s okay. Once you understand the working way of the world, you can find the
flow of your own smouldering heart. Embrace yourself. Smile to yourself. Watch,
listen, take part where and when you can, but most of all… be the person that
you were always meant to be.
When you’re being ignored, when you find yourself alone, you
can hold your thoughts together with your very own heart. There is enough love
within a person, each person, to envelop your grieving nature upon and within
your world. This, this alone, can be the shape of your very heart. You need not
feel sadness, anguish or sorrow. You can stand upon this world and raise your head.
You are not the face you wear upon each given day. You’re not going to be the
person that lights a room, as you need not desire such moments. They are
transitory, empty, with the famous amongst us also finding the very same
emotions that you face. Run from that drama filled space, run as fast as you
can.
Find your acceptance, perseverance, while holding your own
hand when the weather becomes rough. Warm your own fate when the chill of words
enters your very ears. You are your own mountain, with each day becoming a new
chance to scale yourself. Reach the top of your own baggage and fly as high as
you can. These thoughts, these moments, are what you need. Belief.
Understanding of how society around you functions. Emotions be damned,
comprehension be embraced, with your very soul becoming something within the
middle ground.
We are, we will be, we have been, the faceless. This,
however, does not mean that we are nothing less than absolutely, completely,
understandably and most certainly, amazing.
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My Microphone is in work. Audio to follow.
"Faceless: If you describe someone or something as faceless, you dislike them because they are uninteresting and have no character."
"Faceless: If you describe someone or something as faceless, you dislike them because they are uninteresting and have no character."
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